You guys, JESUS IS SO GOOOOD!! He is answering my heartfelt prayers for The Church, prayers for revival, tears of grief. I've long prayed that hearts & eyes would be graciously opened to see our sins of disobedience (quenching the Spirit), especially in the area of eating/drinking & poor lifestyle choices that lead to unnecessary consequences physically, Spiritually & emotionally. As The Church, we are quick to call out the sins of sexual immorality, homosexuality, gossip, etc. But what about gluttony, disobedience & disregard for what we physically feed our bodies, the temple of the Holy Spirit, the very vessel by which we hug, smile, preach, teach, speak, eat, love & move?
Our choices not only affect us, but those around us & the whole Body of Christ ultimately. Gal 5:13 tells us not to use our freedom as an excuse to do whatever we want, only to destroy our freedom. 1 Cor 6:20 reminds us that we are NOT our own, that we were BOUGHT at the highest price, Jesus' innocent life. We are commanded to glorify God with our bodies, the temple of the Holy Spirit. 2 Peter 1:6 Says that knowledge leads to self-control, which leads to perseverance, which leads to godliness. Every choice we make, no matter how small or large, either feeds the flesh or the Spirit (likewise quenches the flesh or quenches the Spirit). And we all know that whatever we feeds most, LIVES! Food & our diet has a direct impact on our physical, emotional & mental health. I see living proof of this EVERY DAY in this Calling God has given me. I've seen the most radical breakthroughs & healing, freedom from things "man" (other Doctors or even doubting Believers) says are impossible. Jesus said in Mat 19:26 "With man this is impossible, but with God ALL things are possible!" I, too, am living proof :)
Let's ask the Lord for a fresh filling of the Holy Spirit this Holiday season, that we might walk in greater JOY, peace, patience, kindness, and...don't forget...self-control (Gal 5:22-23). This is where our power comes from! Self-control (discipline) is one of the fruits we bear for the world to see. Mat 7:16 says that "You will know them by their fruits." God's Word (knowledge) & the power of the Holy Spirit are how we walk in obedience, staying free in everything we do, drawing people to God's goodness & kindness, that they might be humbled & drawn to repentance, in awe of God's relentless love & grace, through us. Are we Kingdom minded in every area of our life?
We have gotten so many questions/comments/testimonies from people who are standing firm, walking in obedience (with JOY!), holding fast to grace & taking initiative to make healthier choices every day & even through the holidays. Many of you have used, or plan to use our recipes at your recent or upcoming Holiday parties & other events! This is such a blessing! Hearing from YOU keeps US pressing forward in our mission: to educate, inspire & equip people to get healthy & to share the Gospel!! Your labor to make healthy changes in your life & OUR labor to help you do so is not in vain. 1 Corinthians 15:58 says "Therefore, my beloved brothers, be steadfast, immovable, always abounding in the work of the Lord, knowing that in the Lord your labor is not in vain."
Press on Church. Joy, peace & grace to you always.
Well YES, our Spirit, the only eternal part of our being, is a priority over our physical body. Godly order says: Spirit, soul, body. The world teaches "body, mind, spirit". 1 Timothy 4:7-8 teaches us to train godliness above physical training. However, this scripture is NOT a license to sin, neglect, or live a life without discipline and self-control. Training hard in godliness does not "cancel out" our need for quality nutrition and obedience in the area of diet any more than extra workouts cancel out the need for a healthy diet. There will never be a substitute for eating real food, and we cannot be surprised when we end up with health problems when we lack discipline, care and discernment in this area. I believe this is an area that needs to be brought to light in the Church so that “our Light can so shine before men that they may see our good works and GLORIFY OUR FATHER IN HEAVEN” (Mat 5:16). We are called to be obedient in all areas of our life.
A healthy "diet" for you may look different than what feeds and nourishes MY body. But the common denominator is real, whole, living foods, pure water...foods and herbs that GOD made. My primary job outside of teaching the GOOD NEWS, is to test each patient to customize what foods FEED their body best and figure out which ones are making them sick. There will NEVER be a diet or specific food rules that work for everyone. Some thrive eating clean, grass-fed meats/animal products, and others thrive on a plant-based diet. ALL of us need to be eating a diet heavy in vegetables and leafy greens and far less sugar/starches. There will never be a way around that ;)
It seems our culture, dare I say, especially our CHURCH culture, acknowledges that indulgence in alcohol, drugs, pre-marital or extra-marital sex, pornography, vanity, gossip, and other “lusts of the flesh” are clearly sin. However, there is OFTEN little regard given to the lack of self control with food… and COFFEE (and sadly even alcohol in modern church culture). The abuse of these things clearly leads to illness & fatigue (mental & physical), and cause so much unnecessary suffering. PLEASE DON'T RUN AWAY YET….hear me out!!! GOD'S GRACE IS ENOUGH FOR US.
It is ABSOLUTELY TRUE what MATTHEW said… “IS NOT LIFE MORE THAN FOOD?”. While we certainly do not want “health” and “diet” to become an obsession or idol, we do have a responsibility to take care of the body God designed for us.
RECALL: 1 Cor 6:19 “Do you not know that your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit within you, whom you have from God?”
Food was given to us to sustain life, and harnesses a power only God could give it, to radically transform our lives. Praise God real food can taste good & be enjoyable!! Praise God for the convenience of whole food supplements & juicing so we can take in concentrated doses of nutrition to make up for what our body has lacked for years (even decades)! The question is: Does not our pleasure, contentment & comfort TRULY come from Jesus? God’s Word says the Holy Spirit is Our Comforter. If some of us are being honest…we have the tendency to choose FOOD (or wine) over Jesus for comfort sometimes (or lots of times!…again, no condemnation in Christ. This is NOT meant to shame ANYONE).
We use food to grieve, celebrate, comfort, medicate and entertain. I’m not suggesting that it’s a sin to do all of the above. The abuse of it, however, is. Food is medicine. Real food is alive and gives life. Real food requires no Doctor’s appointment or prescription. Real food doesn’t DRIVE UP health care costs. Real food was made by our Creator, FOR US, for a reason. It is not meant to be something we obsess over and act like health snobs about. Nor is it an area we can keep pretending God doesn’t care about. Every void we try to fill with food (or sex, tv, social media, medication, busy-ness) is an area of brokenness that God wants to be a part of! Just as sex is a good thing, created by God, FOR MARRIAGE, not to be used or abused outside of the marriage....REAL food is a wonderful thing, Created by God, to be enjoyed and used daily to nourish and heal us, even to celebrate with, but not to be abused or perverted. GOD ALONE can transform our minds to have a new and HOLY relationship with food!!
Romans 12:2 -I appeal to you therefore, brothers, by the mercies of God, to present your bodies as a living sacrifice, holy and acceptable to God, which is your spiritual worship. Do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewal of your mind, that by testing you may discern what is the will of God, what is good and acceptable and perfect.
THE HOLY SPIRIT is our source of self control.
Galatians 5:22-23 tells us SELF CONTROL a fruit of the Spirit!
AND YES, WE CAN CHANGE because God’s Word says,
“We can do ALL things through Christ who strengthens us”. (Phil 4:13)
AMEN?!! Again, no shame. Ephesians 4:15 exhorts us to SPEAK THE TRUTH IN LOVE. We need to talk about this. People are sick, suffering and dying, and SO MUCH OF IT is totally unnecessary.
We are in this together, friends. HIS LOVE is enough!! - Dr. J
ARE WE MANAGING? …OR TRULY DELIVERED? It is very common practice to “exchange” addictions instead of receiving true deliverance/healing (AKA: FREEDOM!). Allow me to define what I mean by “Deliverance” below since (I've come to learn that) this can be a debatable word in Christian circles. Working out obsessively in place of binge eating or drinking alcohol, or chain smoking after quitting drinking or doing drugs, or guzzling coffee after laying down alcohol, or substituting porn for gambling & vice versa, or using phrases like “I LOVE/HAVE TO HAVE coffee. At least I'm not an alcoholic anymore!”… Can anyone relate? I’ve been here. We just exchange one crutch for another, more palatable one ;)
MANAGEMENT: WE are trying to have control (but never really do); based on will-power; NO REAL REPENTANCE for the sin; pride; still tormented/guilt; temporary; deceiving; we are still not truly FREE; still bound by man-made rules to “try” to be good; (ie: Every time I want a ___, Im gonna ____ instead); one source of false comfort is exchanged for another.
DELIVERANCE: GOD is in control; GOD’S POWER ALONE heals us from addiction and bondage (very real spiritual warfare); TRUE REPENTANCE & DESIRE TO CHANGE; humility; no more torment/guilt; lasting; Truth; TRUE FREEDOM. Simple. The work is done at the cross! A new creation in Christ. The ONLY exchange that takes place is THAT THING we just have to have/do is replaced with God's unending Love, the only thing that NEVER RETURNS VOID.
When our “addictions” just change from something illegal to legal, or “ugly” to socially acceptable…we are not truly free. It’s still bondage, only more deceiving because it can be masked as “health” or “freedom” from the world’s perspective. When we “manage” our addictions, it appears we are moving in the right direction, so friends and family will praise us for our “strength” or “will-power”. But that’s just it…it’s our own strength, not God’s.
It will eventually fail us. God has better for us.
DELIVERANCE brings forth true joy, clarity, and real freedom in your life. Deliverance, as I am calling it, is really just another word for breaking the chains, breaking strongholds, or the sanctification process that is continuously happening from our day of salvation until the day we die. As we get to know Jesus more and more, we are humbled and repentant of more and more, allowing God’s power to transform us (deliver us from) more and more. I call that Deliverance. There are “Christian books” on deliverance that are “formula-based” or “works-based”…I want to be clear that following some strict formula for Deliverance is neither Biblical nor accurate. Simply acknowledge and repent for your sin and know that God is the only one who has the power to heal. It may look very different from someone else’s journey. My sobriety required no 12-step program or other human being. God did use a bible study I was in to feed me the scriptures that finally convicted me and lead me to repentance. Remember: It's God's kindness (and GOODNESS) that lead us to repentance (Romans 2:4).
My healing came through the mighty Word of God, a repentant heart (God knows when your heart is truly sorry), and God’s amazing power and grace. SIMPLE. I have never touched or craved alcohol again. I know what boundaries I cannot cross in order to stay free. It is a choice.
And now that I finally stand on the freedom side of this, I see the level of deception I was under, how easily I could argue against everything I am now saying. I could even manipulate scripture to justify why it was ok for me to drink. It not only hurt me by keeping me tangled in the lie, it kept me tormented, powerless, and exhausted. It also mislead so many others. I’d love to pray with you if you need healing in this area.
Psalms 18:2 NKJV The Lord is my rock and my fortress and my deliverer; My God, my strength, in whom I will trust; My shield and the horn of my salvation, my stronghold.
Three years ago I would have told you I was fine. But until we’ve been set FREE, truly set free, another piece of our heart fully surrendered to Jesus, we DO NOT know what we are missing because all we know is where we have been. Amen? I WAS an alcoholic. I WAS in bondage to promiscuity and drugs all through my teens and 20's. I was tormented by FEAR in so many ways, the worst being night terrors from as early as I can remember until the day I quit drinking! There are so many battles the Lord has delivered me from over time. I want to tell you my story about "alcoholism"…which I was delivered from in August 2013 (WOOHOOOO!!!) THAT was the link that instantly set me free from a lifetime of night terrors and paralyzing fear and anxiety.
Yes, we are delivered from the bondage of sin and hell, and given the promise and hope of Heaven the day we are saved!! That does not mean, however, that everyone is instantly freed from every stronghold at that very moment. Some people ARE instantly changed or healed. For others, like me, some (or many) strongholds remain. When we acknowledge sin for what it is, repent for it, and invite God to help and heal us, knowing we cannot do it for ourselves, He comes in and faithfully heals us (delivers, however you want to word it) in ways we may never have seen the connection.
I NEVER IMAGINED THERE WAS A LINK BETWEEN MY DRINKING & NIGHT TERRORS.
I started drinking and smoking and doing drugs at age 12. I slept on barstools as a child and knew all the other kids at the bar my parents frequented. It was normal to me. It certainly wasn’t “an addiction” in my eyes. Everyone did it. I thought it was wierd when people didn’t drink. I learned very young that those people were “prudes”, “boring”, “judgemental”, “didn’t know how to have fun”, AND that “I worked my BUTT off (since performance & pride were other struggles), so I DESERVED to TREAT myself to a drink”. I became a cocktail waitress ON my 18th birthday, and then BARTENDER as soon as I turned 21. I was raised with the mentality that if you’re not living on the streets and missing teeth, getting multiple DUI’s, or losing custody of your kids for being a drunk that you do not have a drinking problem. Heck, all of our Catholic Church picnics were BEER FESTS!! I worked hard, got good grades, paid my own bills, excelled in school and work, so I did whatever I wanted. And there were consequences.
I finally crumbled at age 28, getting radically saved as soon as I graduated Chiropractic school within days of moving to Franklin, TN. God was rocking my world and my beliefs started to change. Fast forward 6 years into my salvation and MANY MISTAKES later, God got my attention at the end of August 2013 with this verse:
1 COR 6:12 (NIV) “Everything is permissible for me, but not everything is beneficial,” says the Lord. “Everything is permissible for me, but I WILL NOT BE MASTERED BY ANYTHING.” (emphasis mine) (*God repeats Himself again in 1 Cor 10:23) In a moment, I knew that God knew (that I knew for sure) that I had been running from this for years. I knew that He wasn’t going to launch me back into full-time ministry to be trusted with HIS people until I dealt with this. I knew I wasn’t just battling “toxic guilt” as many of my Christian friends, my “healthy” drinking buddies and husband would tell me (beware who you get advice from…Do we really want THE TRUTH or people who justify our sin & tickle our ears?). I KNEW God had been speaking to me for years and that HE KNEW I was convicted. It was my choice to continue in sin and face harsher consequences or repent and trust HIM to do what I was never able to do. God gave me SO MANY second chances, SO MUCH GRACE and SO MUCH MERCY. I made SO many mistakes under the influence....BUT GOD... OH how He loves us!
Clearly if I actually had power over this (aka: it wasn’t an addiction) then I would have walked away from it after the millionth mistake and the repeating saga of shame and guilt and hangovers that followed. It was insanity. Fear told me I couldn't quit, so denial was easier.
I heard the Lord say “You can LEAD my people out of OBEDIENCE, or you can MISLEAD them in your DISOBEDIENCE“. Ouch! …Humbled. Convicted. Surrendered. I was afraid to admit this was such a stronghold in my life because I DID NOT BELIEVE I could ever quit. And I was right. I couldn’t. BUT GOD COULD. I was instantly delivered when I truly confessed from the bottom of my heart, when I cried out to God that I was really truly ready to be healed from this, when I believed I had no power over this on my own, and when these scriptures became life and Truth to me. I. am. so. grateful. This wasn’t just about me. This decision changed the course of my life, health, marriage & ministry...for the better!!!
I CAME TO THE END OF MYSELF & GOD GAVE ME A NEW LIFE. From that day forward, I was set free from a lifetime of night terrors (33 years my friends!). I slept sound for the 1st time in my life!! I had peace I’d never experienced before. I had courage to do things I never could. The 1st 6 months were hard in other ways, but ultimately my husband joined me in complete sobriety. We were FINALLY equally yoked!! My husband immediately received a fresh filling of the Holy Spirit, and God anointed us to go out and share the gospel. God united us like never before and answered prayers we had so desperately desired! Within WEEKS, He blasted open the doors for the Revelation Revolution Fitness Ministry!! He gave me the name, the location, the courage, the wisdom & the anointing to say and do the things I wasn’t able to before!!
GOD DID THE IMPOSSIBLE. Confessing & laying down our sin isn't just about us. It has a ripple affect. When we do not surrender it robs the next generation of freedom. We are essentially teaching our children and the many people we influence that compromise is ok.
THE TRUTH IS: Partial obedience = DISOBEDIENCE.
Obedience slams the door in satan’s face, saying “NO MORE! The enemy CANNOT have my life, my peace, my mind, my family, or my FREEDOM!!” We must fight for our freedom!! A hopeless world is watching us….looking for answers, wondering if God really is who He says He is, desperate, doubting, drowning, watching whether we stand or crumble when the storms come. If we don’t stand out and truly walk in the freedom that Christ died to give us, how is God’s power and glory really displayed in our lives??!! If we look & act just like the world, how can we call ourselves a "peculiar people, a chosen generation"?! If we never give God the opportunity to do the impossible, then do we truly believe HE ACTUALLY CAN?? OR are we just repeating words & songs and doing whatever we want? I think that's called "religion". We want RELATIONSHIP.
WE ARE THE VESSEL HE WANTS TO USE!! What are we willing to lay down for THE ONE who gave it ALL for us?? Are we willing to go lower so that HIS NAME can go Higher?!
Know the Truth and the TRUTH WILL SET YOU FREE. Let Freedom Ring!!
2 COR 1:20 (NKJV) For ALL the promises of God in Him are YES, and in Him AMEN, to the glory of God THROUGH US. …Amen? HEBREWS 12:1 (NIV) Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw of the sin that so easily entangles, and let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us. I AM PRAYING that every reader who ever reads this blog will surrender, repent, and RECEIVE THE FREEDOM that Jesus Christ died to give us! To Him be the glory. Amen.
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Back in the day, 1 piece of the warrior's armor was a shield which had edges designed to "lock" into the neighboring warrior's shield. They could then form a wall of "locking shields" to protect them from the weapons being shot at them across the battlefield.
We are ALL in a spiritual battle and need to learn to put on our armor every day. We can LOCK SHIELDS with our brothers and sisters in Christ to form an IMPENETRABLE wall of faith & protection against the fiery darts of the devil! It's a PROMISE! We can rest peacefully under the SHIELD OF FAITH, knowing that it quenches ALL of those fiery darts! Amen??
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SO, I have been really busy and feeling super sluggish the last few weeks – Bowels. energy. Waking up. Thyroid needing extra support lately. Skin a bit dull. Cranky. Irritable. Anxious. OVERWHELMED. Brain fog. Joint pain. Just NOT myself. The EASY, fear-based, take-this-into-my-own-hands solution would have been to call MY Holistic Doctor. BUT… I GOT THAT “CHECK” IN MY SPIRIT… INSTEAD, I felt like I was supposed to start a cleanse (praise God I keep those in stock) and go to bed early to spend time with Jesus.
I laid in bed last night confessing & repenting for my lack of discipline in some areas, laying at the feet of Jesus, asking Him to show me things in my life that distract me from His presence, peace and healing. “Jesus, show me, teach me, help me. FORGIVE ME for my rebellious ways.”
I LONG to wake up early daily and have more of a routine, but it seems as soon as I have a good stretch of waking by or before 6am, I blow it. Before long, I’m sleeping until 7-7:30am-ish, my day is full-speed ahead, it’s time to work…and my devotional time gets skipped….AGAIN! Another day overwhelmed and surviving on GRACE. * AND REPEAT * UGH. I know better. I KNOW what a day without “my daily bread” is… hungry, thirsty, empty.
“WHY GOD? WHAT AM I MISSING? Is this just “who I am” and I just need to work with it? Or is there something you want to change in me?” I know not to go down the shame and guilt road that leads to NOWHERE GOOD really fast. The enemy fires quick when we’re run down…”you’re lazy, pathetic, joke of a leader, never get it right, always late, never gonna change, phony, hypocrite”…. LIES. LIES. LIES…. Cast those down immediately!!
PRAISE: This morning I was awake by 5:45am!!! I sat down with my journal and Bible 1st thing and I heard God say: Make health A priority so that I can be THE PRIORITY EVERY DAY!
And then He showed me what MY NEXT STEPS were and what was “out of balance”. He told me I needed to cleanse my liver (confirmation!), set some healthy boundaries with clients and social media, and STOP checking my phone 1st thing in the morning. We also had a chat about “FEAR”. God helped me look at my list of symptoms objectively as I would any client I was working with. It was so obvious. I was not confused. My liver was bogged down. I let things get out of balance and got caught in the vicious cycle of infirmity/busy-ness/emotional chaos. Fear increased as my physical health took it’s toll on my priorities and daily routine. PERFECT LOVE casts out fear (1 John 4:18). My time in the Word, sitting amongst PERFECT LOVE had been lacking. FEAR has been holding me back from setting some new boundaries. God is blessing this ministry and my responsibilities are shifting.
GOD GAVE ME GRACE and got me out of bed. HE HELPED ME KEEP MY PRIORITIES STRAIGHT, and in the stillness, I could hear His voice. He was faithful to give me my “daily bread” as He promises!! HE TRULY IS A GOOD GOOD FATHER!!
As I write this at the end of the day, I feel better already!! God, OUR GREAT PHYSICIAN, The Doctor of all Doctors, took me to the ROOT! My thyroid is back to life already! Energy’s up. Poops are great (sorry! TMI! ha). Mind is calm. Anxiety down. Fog is lifting. Skin’s breaking out…that’s a good sign the garbage is coming out! Back to THRIVING in GRACE, not just surviving.
* * * KEEP IT SIMPLE * * *
But seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things will be added to you. – Mat 6:33 ESV
What has YOUR lack of health or discipline cost you?? Our merciful Father has SO MUCH MORE for us, if only we seek Him, ask Him, spend time with Him. We will save ourselves so much unnecessary suffering, so much wasted time and money, so much anxiety, so much frustration. He will show you the NEXT STEPS. He will protect you from becoming obsessive about health and chasing your tail. God’s Word can cut where no surgeon’s scalpel or whole food supplement can!
GOD is our Primary Care Physician. He may give you a referral or it may not be what you WANT to hear, but at least it came from the TRUSTED SOURCE of TRUE WHOLENESS! And in that, you can “Trust the process”.
The Lord gave me a great word in 2009 as He called me to start sharing my testimony & past publicly: Once God heals you of your offenses and sin and YOU become OK with YOU then no one can hold it against you ever again. The shame and the guilt end today!! Receive your freedom friends! Tell your story. Make God the main character :)
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I was advised to quit using the words HOLISTIC & WHOLENESS to avoid accusations of being “NEW AGE”. I’ve been accused of practicing witchcraft for using muscle testing on numerous occasions over the years. I am well aware of the New Age movement and take every bit of what I do, what I teach, and what I believe before the throne of God for Truth and discernment.
I can’t deny what God’s Word says.
1 Thessalonians 5:23-24 MSG
May God himself, the God who makes everything holy & whole, make you holy & whole, put you together--spirit, soul, & body—and KEEP YOU FIT for the coming of our Master, Jesus Christ. The One who called you is completely dependable. If he said it, he’ll do it!
James 2:26 ESV
For as the body apart from the spirit is dead, so also faith apart from works is dead.
Psalm 16:9 ESV
Therefore my heart is glad, and my whole being rejoices; my flesh also dwells secure.
You shall love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your strength and with all your mind, and your neighbor as yourself.
Love the LORD your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your strength.
Then God said, “Let us make mankind in our image, in our likeness, so that they may rule over the fish in the sea and the birds in the sky, over the livestock and all the wild animals,[a] and over all the creatures that move along the ground.” So God created mankind in his own image, in the image of God he created them; male and female he created them.
**According to the Bible, mankind is distinct from all the rest of creation, including the animals, in that he is made in the image of God. As God is tripartite — Father, Son and Holy Spirit — man is tripartite: Spirit, soul, & body.
“Wholeness” or “holistic” is only possible through God. I DO NOT believe we need to shy away from these words, rather use them & LIVE THEM carefully & clearly. We need to teach people what it really means to be “whole”, which is to share the gospel in Truth. These ARE Godly words that have been perverted and misused by the New Age Movement. People are being deceived.
It is simple: We are a SPIRIT, SOUL & BODY, but if JESUS is not at the head of the “spiritual” aspect, we are moving AWAY FROM wholeness. If we are not glorifying God with the things we do WITH and TO our bodies, we are not moving toward “wholeness.” If we are not taking our thoughts captive to the obedience of Christ, and surrendering our heart and emotions to Jesus, again, we are not moving toward “wholeness.”
True WHOLENESS is the likeness of Jesus Christ. Complete WHOLENESS cannot be achieved this side of heaven. And there is only ONE way to heaven, through our amazing Savior, Jesus Christ!
Health, weight, addiction, depression??
Let’s take a look at David’s strategy for DEFEATING the “giant” in his life. He didn’t ward off Goliath for a time, HE WON!
#1: David was opposed & accused (by family/friends!!) 1 Sam 17: 28 Now Eliab his oldest brother heard when he spoke to the men; and Eliab’s anger was aroused against David, and he said, “Why did you come down here?”
#2: David responds maturely, confidently, fearlessly & faithfully v.37 “The Lord who delivered me from the paw of the lion and from the paw of the bear, He will deliver me from the hand of THIS Philistine”
#3 David LET GO of what held him back (his armor; his “self-protection”) v.39 “…I cannot walk with these, for I have not tested them.” So David took them off.
#4 David CHOSE WISELY & MADE IMPORTANT DECISIONS to prepare for victory v.40 “He CHOSE for himself FIVE. SMOOTH. STONES.…and His sling was in His hand”
#5 David KNEW the giant he was up against (Our “Goliath”- health? weight? addiction? depression? lying? BEAUTY??)
#6 David KNEW His opponent had “BROTHERS” so HE CHOSE 5 STONES, NOT JUST 1. David chose STONES, not WATER-BALLOONS!! Who are your giant’s “brothers”? cancer, heart disease, anxiety, stroke, chronic pain, depression, kids with health problems, failed relationships, lust, jealousy, bitterness…
#7 DAVID SPEAKS to the Giant in faith: v. 46-47 THIS DAY THE LORD WILL DELIVER YOU INTO MY HAND, and I will strike you and take your head from you. And this day I will give the carcasses of the camp of the Philistines to the birds of the air and the wild beasts of the earth, that all the earth may know that there is a God in Israel. 47 Then all this assembly shall know that the Lord does not save with sword and spear; for THE BATTLE IS THE LORD’S, and He will give you into our hands.
What is your GIANT and how are you preparing for battle? Is the Lord leading? When HE is in control, the victory is real!! More than knowing your GIANT, KNOW THE GOD YOU SERVE!! HE. IS. ABLE. and HE LOVES YOU!!
We got married in Breckenridge, CO on Good Friday, April 2, 2010. We called it an Easter Weekend Wedding and Jesus was ALIVE that weekend! I was living in Franklin, TN and Zach was living in Denver, CO. God was moving FAST in our lives.
Zach & I were smitten kittens in high school (1995) when his family moved to Belleville, IL from Southern CA (ironically). Back then we were wild & crazy. Anyway, his family moved away 9 mos later and Zach & I were pen pals for the next 4 years….and never spoke again until he found me on FACEBOOK in april 2009! We were married 1 yr later and God worked miracles in our lives!! God pieced this long distance wedding together w no rehearsal, every step planned from 1300 miles away in < 3 months, a minimal budget, celebrity photographers who shot our wedding WEEKEND for FREE (OMG…best gift from God!), little support from family or friends, and a LOT of Holy Spirit FAVOR!!!
After 5 days w #mylove I had to get on a plane and go home to Tennessee, on faith that one day Zach’s parole would get transferred and we would get to live together. It was a VERY difficult 6 months, but after dating long-distance 1 year & being married 6 months long-distance, God made a way where the law said No…and He’s built our faith and trust and set us #onfire as a result of the many trials we’ve been through together. Without Jesus we wouldn’t have made it 1 year!!
While most people don’t recommend marrying a guy coming out of prison (and I get it..lol), GOD DID. And my 1st visions and prophetic dreams began the month I met Zach. God graciously confirmed him to be my husband over & over again, because it didn’t make sense and it cost me most of my family & friends at the time. God knew Zach was a new creation in Christ and was teaching me to TRUST GOD over myself. #noregrets
We must submit our plans to the Lord if we want to receive the desires of our heart!! It won’t look like our own “plan”…but it WILL be worth it. IT WILL BE WAY BETTER than ANYTHING we could ask or imagine!!!! #happyanniversary to God’s pick for me…the ONE that my pride and fear almost kept me from, to the one who has patiently stood beside me while God has healed the “brat”, “snot” and “people pleaser” in me.
I went through training to become a CERTIFIED REVELATION WELLNESS INSTRUCTOR in the Fall of 2013. LIFE CHANGING is all I can say!!
I desperately wanted to start teaching fitness again, but this time it wasn’t about “fitness” at all….fitness was a platform, but JESUS was now the main thing
I like Fitness. I LOVE Jesus. And if I can’t share Jesus while teaching fitness, then I have no desire to teach fitness classes anymore. I am divinely ruined. I have taught fitness classes since I was 19 years old. But I burned out after doing it as a hobby and “to stay in shape”… but that was essentially…empty. And the fire eventually burned out…as ALL THINGS built in the flesh do.
Revelation Wellness intersected my health, fitness and JESUS passions and fueled a new chapter of ministry God was birthing in my life. After 6 months post-graduation, my new friend Brooke, a Holy Yoga Instructor offered her garage studio for me to launch classes from. GOD IS SO GOOD!!
Humble beginnings. Here are videos from the first REVELATION REVOLUTION class in Orange County!!
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This ministry began without a name, without a location, without a “plan”, without a FACEBOOK page (say it wasn’t so!!).
Just me + Jesus (and my husband’s blessing)…just a glimpse of what God had called me to do here in CA. I had finally accepted that after selling my practice in Franklin, TN, things were never going to look like they did before…and I finally surrendered to it.
God was not calling me to open another practice. He was NOT calling me to carry the load I was used to carrying. He was not calling me to be a full time Chiropractor anymore. How could this be?!! This didn’t MAKE SENSE. How was I going to pay off my student loans?? How were we going to pay our bills PERIOD? WHY would He do this?? I went to college for almost 10 years…what?!! I LOVED my patients well and poured my heart into what I did. WHY was I being punished like this??!
But God said NO, so I said OK.
He was calling me “out” of my comfort zone, into the UNKNOWN, away from an office…He was setting me FREE to DO REAL LIFE.. with real people, to go deeper into the trenches of “ministry”. He wanted my heart, so that’s what He got.
God opened the door for the 1st fitness class in March 2014…in a garage…and 10 people showed up! 3 came the next week. I hadn’t taught a fitness classes in about 3 years! After taking the 1st steps of obedience- willing to lay down my pride, give up “being a Doctor”, only do Nutrition FROM HOME on a part-time basis, quit worrying about money, quit caring what anyone thought of me, just teach fitness once a week…in a garage (when I really wanted to teach Christian Indoor Cycling but every studio shut me down…too risky; too “corny”, too “christian”)…THEN GOD SHOWED ME Step 2. AND THEN HE BLASTED OPEN THE DOORS for me to teach CHRISTIAN INDOOR CYCLING at CB CycleBarn only 1 month later!!
AND THEN He just blessed the mess out of my marriage (that was on the rocks at the time) and this new ministry called Revelation Revolution. He opened the doors for me to host 2 small health retreats last summer (2014), to take this ministry to Mexico to bring hope and health to the less privelaged, and He showed me how to work with clients for “nutrition” HIS WAY. When I got out of the way, God got busy!
And here we are, celebrating JESUS RESURRECTION at CB CycleBarn AGAIN 1 year later! 2 people from the studio have given their hearts to Jesus so far! I get to grow in the Lord through Discipleship calls 1x/week with a few girls around the country, just sharing what God has taught me & praying for them. And because of the accountability to teaching God’s Word through all these platforms, I am learning God’s Word better and deeper than ever before!! I am so much more balanced than when I was Wonder-Woman running a full-time practice, teaching Spin classes 2x/week after work, emotionally exhausted from trying to give 200% in everything I did, with nothing left for my husband, myself, or anyone else when I got home.
God knows BEST! He is GOOD. His plans ARE GOOD! And He blesses the mess out of obedience!!
DO NOT DESPISE HUMBLE BEGINNINGS and DO-OVERS. God Loves us. He KNOWS BEST what we need, and what HE needs to heal in us so that He can better use us for HIS GLORY. If He calls us to lay something down, it’s only because He has something SO MUCH BETTER for us!
Just take the 1st step. God will do the rest.
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They were caught taking advantage of people, using their religious power to manipulate people into buying from them, using THE TEMPLE to do it, AND were over-charging for these “holy goods”. Jesus was furious and drove the greedy, phony, religious people out of HIS TEMPLE with harsh words in John 2:16,19-21 “…Take these things away! Do not make My Father’s house a house of merchandise!…Destroy this temple, and in three days I will raise it up. Then the Jews said, “it has taken 46 years to build this temple, and you will raise it up in 3 days? But He was speaking of THE TEMPLE OF HIS BODY.” We hear about Jesus rising up in anger (controlled & righteous anger) only one other time in the Bible, at the very end of His earthly ministry. Once again, it was in response to people perverting the use of God’s house/the temple. Mat 21:12-13 Then Jesus went into the temple of God and drove out all those who bought and sold in the temple, and OVERTURNED the tables of the money changers and the seats of those who sold doves. And He said to them “It is written ‘MY HOUSE SHALL BE CALLED A HOUSE OF PRAYER’, but you have made it a ‘den of thieves’ “.
BOTTOM LINE: God is very serious about how His temple is to be used; about it being a place where God’s Glory is found.
In OUR GENERATION today, the age of grace, the generations beyond Jesus’ life, death and resurrection, WE are the temple, OUR BODIES are the place where God’s glory is supposed to reside. WE ARE THE TEMPLE OF THE HOLY SPIRIT.
Paul refers to our physical bodies as an “earthly house” or “tent” – 2 Corinthians 5:1 “For we know that if our EARTHLY HOUSE, this tent, is destroyed, we have a building from God, a house not made with hands, eternal in the heavens.”
Psalm 127:1 “Unless the Lord builds the house, they labor in vain who build it” How are we building “our house”? What are we building and using it for? Is there anything Jesus wants to “overturn” in our hearts/lives?
JESUS CAN AND WILL put “our houses” back in order to be used for HIS GLORY
LOVE vs THE LAW
The LAW screams “Responsibility!”
LOVE says “Just respond to Me”
We never know what lies ahead each day as the Lord guides us in the newness of His Spirit rather than the oldness of the letter. Are we studying God’s Word and leaving room for the Holy Spirit to minister to us each day?
Paul tells us the law was not made for the righteous man who is in love with the Lord, who walks close to God, who desires to please the Lord. It was made for the lawless, the disobedient, the ungodly. Those who don’t care about the Lord need the law laid upon them for their own protection. The law keeps the unrighteous from rampant sin AND IT DRIVES THE SELF-RIGHTEOUS to Jesus.
1 Timothy 1: 8-9 But we know that the law is good if one uses it lawfully, knowing this: that the law is not made for a righteous person, but for the lawless and insubordinate, for the ungodly and for sinners, for the unholy and profane”…(the list continues) There are people in “church-ianity”, in LEGALISM, who are caught up in the shadows, bound up, critical, and missing out on so much as they drive themselves and others around them crazy focusing on their list of “can & cant’s”, black & white, and putting the same heaviness on others… when the reality is JESUS CHRIST.
HE is our sabbath. HE is our rest. HE is the reality. HE is out TRUTH. HE is the answer. HIS LOVE will drive us to repentance.
When we look at the law, we must look at the heart of the Father and not get caught up in technicalities. When we read the Old Testament, we can ask “Lord, show me something about YOU and something practical for ME.” May the Lord keep us from the depression and oppression and exhaustion that come from preoccupation with rules and regulations, obligations and stipulations…that we might know what it truly means to be FREE and married to Mr. Right (Jesus) who loves us unconditionally and will lead us day by day in JOY and LIBERTY, free from the bondage of sin AND the bondage of legalism!!
Love Wins. Keep your eyes on Jesus
COMPROMISE: ANYTHING other than a complete commitment to God.
Pharoah (a type of Satan) offered the FIRST compromise to Moses in Ex 8:25 “God ahead & serve God… but stay in the land”.
In today’s language He was saying “Just get to church or read your Bible…but you don’t need to change your lifestyle or make a real separation from the world.” or “You love God & everyone knows it so it’s ok to drink as long as you’re talking about Jesus.” or “You go to church on Sundays and go to Bible study, too, so it’s ok to sleep with your boyfriend.” or how about this one…”You’re serving and doing missions and going to heaven, so don’t worry about what you eat. God doesn’t care about your physical health.”
2 Corinthians 6:17 (NKJV) says “Come out from among them and be separate…Do not touch what is unclean and I will receive you.”
2 Corinthians 5:17 (ESV) says “Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, He is a NEW CREATION. THE OLD HAS PASSED away; behold the new has come.”
Galatians 2:20 (ESV) says “I have been crucified with Christ. It is no longer I who live, but Christ who lives in me. And the life I now live in the flesh I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave Himself for me.”
As Christians, we take a position of FAITH, knowing our “old nature” (the things we used to love and do) was crucified with Christ. We CHOOSE to walk in the Light, in the SPIRIT, in OBEDIENCE to what the Scriptures are really saying. We understand the greatness of God, His sacrifice to us, and and we live to enter the land of Promise
COMPROMISE compromises God’s best in our lives!
He gave it all for us WITHOUT COMPROMISE. A brutal death. Severe persecution & mockery. A world that HATED Him…He gave His life for.
Why would we compromise? Don’t take the bait of compromise! When we compromise we not only harm ourselves, but we harm or confuse those who look for God IN US.
It’s not about us, it’s ALWAYS ABOUT HIM
The Lord allows us to come to the end of ourselves, the end of our resources and our own “good ideas”…even to the brink of hopelessness before He “does His God thang”. When God works in our life, He does NOT want us bragging about how skilled we are or some great work that WE ACCOMPLISHED on our own. The purpose of our trials is to bring glory to God and increase our faith.
I am reading through the Bible, cover to cover, this year. I’ve been intimidated by this and feared not being disciplined enough to succeed. I am notorious for reading books halfway and putting them down (don’t judge!). So I finally thought, I have to start somewhere. GOD IS MY STRENGTH. I’m pretty sure HE CAN DO THIS through me. Time to practice what I preach and just submit to prayer for God’s discipline and desire and perseverance to accomplish this awesome feat! Jana can’t, but GOD CAN.
Genesis 17:5 & 17:15
No longer shall your name be called Abram, but your name shall be Abraham; for I have made you a father of many nations….Then God said to Abraham, “As for Sarai your wife, you shall not call her name Sarai, but Sarah shall be her name…”
God inserts the letter “h” into Abraham & Sarah’s names. “H” is made with the sound of breath. God put the sound of breath into Abraham AND Sarah’s names…He INSERTED HIMSELF, because the hebrew word for breath = ruach = Spirit. Therefore, God inserted His Spirit, His life into them, bringing them into a whole new dimension of life – the life after the Spirit. A new identity. Just like the coming Messiah would come to give us…a new identity in Christ.
ABRAM = high father; ABRAHAM = father of many nations.
SARAI = contentious; SARAH = princess. …pretty cool huh?!
Genesis 17: 19-21
Then God said: “No, Sarah your wife shall bear you a son, and you shall call his name Isaac; I will establish My covenant with him for an everlasting covenant, and with his descendants after him.
At this point, their names had been changed (new identity). The former Sarai and Abram had already taken God’s promise of a son into their own hands and used Hagar, Sarai’s maidservant, to give Abram a son (Ishmael). They gave God a deadline and then tried to “help God.” NEVER A GOOD IDEA. Hagar got pregnant and gave birth to Ishmael. So now Abraham was old, his body was dead (impotent) and Sarah was way past the age of fertility (menopause).
It was the perfect set-up for God to work a miracle and give them the son God promised
They were in a place where they could no longer do anything themselves. They came to the end of themselves and their resources. There was jealousy and hardship over what they had taken into their own hands. They brought much hardship on themselves. But now God had room to move. And ONLY GOD COULD RECEIVE THE PRAISE FOR THE MIRACLE OF ISAAC! He proved Himself faithful, powerful, redeeming, and loving.
Genesis 21: 1-3
And the LORD visited Sarah as He had said, and the LORD did for Sarah as He had spoken. For Sarah conceived and bore Abraham a son in his old age, at the set time of which God had spoken to him. And Abraham called the name of his son who was born to him—whom Sarah bore to him—Isaac.
We must stop taking life into our own hands. The end of ourselves is the beginning of miracles. He did it for Abraham & Sarah, His Word is documentation of endless promises and miracles, and HE IS ALIVE and still working miracles today.
Don’t give God a deadline. Just believe
They are both gummy resins that are tapped from the inner bark of two different trees that grow in the Arabian peninsula, Africa and India. A resin to a tree, is akin to a scab on our skin, so clearly, these resins are more protective to the shrub than plain sap.
FRANKINCENSE is rich in “boswellic acids,” an ingredient that has strong anti-inflammatory benefits. You may find it as “frankincense” or “boswellia.” It can come as a liquid extract or capsules you take orally, or as essential oil which is used on the skin or in aromatizers/diffusers. 100% Pure, therapeutic-grade essential oils (like the one’s I use: NATURE'S SUNSHINE or DoTerra or Young Living) CAN BE taken internally but consult your health care provider or essential oils representative first.
*DO NOT ingest oils you purchase from a health food store unless you are 100% certain of their quality& purity. Just use topically. ALWAYS keep away from your eyes.
BOSWELLIA (herbal Frankincense) is found in 3 products: IF RELIEF, RELIEF FORMULA & JOINT HEALTH. It is known to HELP THE THYROID & KILL CANCER!! Woohoo!! Keep reading…
Boswellia has been studied and found to prevent the growth of certain types of cancers in ‘test tube’ studies. In 2009, researchers examined AKBA or “acetyl-11-keto-beta-boswellic acid” and found positive benefits. This study was titled, Frankincense Superior to Chemotherapy in Killing Late-Stage Ovarian Cancer Cells. This is not the first study to suggest anti-cancer properties. The results of another study proved that frankincense oil could help with bladder cancer. The researchers concluded, “Frankincense oil might represent an alternative intravesical agent for bladder cancer treatment.”
Let’s talk about MYRRH, which is another resin extracted from the Commiphora myrrha tree. Research confirms the presence of guggulsterones in myrrh which may help with cholesterol ratios, specifically by lowering LDL. Guggulsterones are blood thinners so be careful and don’t combine with aspirin, NSAIDs, warfarin or other blood thinners. Pregnant women should also avoid myrrh since it’s a uterine stimulant.
Most people talk about a topical form of Myrrh (essential oil) which is commonly used to soothe your skin and help with gingivitis. So profound is myrrh’s ability to heal damaged tissues, Greek soldiers carried it into battle with them to use for skin infections and gangrene.
Myrrh is a strong anti-bacterial, anti parasitic and antifungal. If you want to take it internally, you can look for herbal extracts. Myrrh also possesses strong anti-cancer properties. A Chinese test tube study published in 2013, found that “cycloartane-type triterpernoids” could destroy prostate cancer cells. Pretty impressive! In fact, just inhaling the scent of pure frankincense or myrrh can cause your brain and heart to respond favorably.
Clearly frankincense and myrrh are still a wise gift of health, seeing that they were fit for the King of Kings!!!
We must find that balance of knowing God’s Word, meditating on scripture AND CONTEXT daily in order to know Him & what His Word REALLY SAYS….all the while balancing the fact that…
There will always remain some level of mystery with God!! HE is God. WE are not. (THANK GOD!!)
He has 3 parts: God the Father, Jesus our friend. And the Holy Spirit. Let the HOLY SPIRIT be the Holy Spirit. That’s not our job
The Holy Spirit guides, counsels, comforts, strengthens, reveals, convicts, blesses, transforms, knows, revives, warns, protects, rewards, sanctifies, enriches, speaks, brings JOY…. NEED I SAY MORE??! It’s in the scriptures
In those “grey areas”…the places “unknown”…FAITH & DISCERNMENT ARE ABSOLUTELY NECESSARY. We MUST get to know God’s voice. Only God knows what man does not, and HE CAN REVEAL TRUTH to use at any moment when we are walking in step with Him, when we have received a baptism of the Holy Spirit, and we are in tune to HIS VOICE.
If we are not hearing clearly from Him, we can humbly ask the Lord to reveal any sin in our lives. Repent for what He reveals. Receive HIS forgiveness & grace (don’t let condemnation try to rob you of God’s grace!!). Ask for a fresh filling of the Holy Spirit or a baptism of the Holy Spirit if you have never done that before. And then simply move forward. TRUST GOD to complete His good work in you We are all sinners in need of forgiveness daily.
Luke 11:13 NIV
If you then, though you are evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father in heaven give the Holy Spirit to those who ask him!”
This is where the rubber meets the road. This is where our knowledge of scripture, wisdom & faith collide in real life as we learn to navigate those “grey areas”…the uncertainties, the unusual experiences, the supernatural, the things that happen outside the box. The radical healings. The miracles! The true FREEDOM. Much of our “church” today is scared to death of REAL FREEDOM. FREEDOM IN CHRIST…not freedom to do as we please as the world sees it. MUCH of “American church” has quenched the working of the Holy Spirit, with our hyper-literal thinking, our legalistic or false teaching, and our controlling (fear-based) ways of thinking and living. We live in a world that goes to the ends of the earth to “figure everything out”, and it has spilled over into our faith (or lack thereof). This world is so obsessed with science, self-help books, me-first, “what will people think”, more, more, more, GOTTA HAVE A PLAN, and where’s the coffee & someone-looked-at-me-funny-in-church kind of problems…We don’t “need” a lot of faith in America.
May we remember Jesus had no letters behind his name, no “scientific” background, spoke in parables, had no place to lay his head, did not wear name-brand or “professional” clothes before He went to speak, and was qualified by God alone…and He conquered MILLIONS, defeated death, LOVED ALL, and spoke to more life issues than anyone or anything else (put together) in ancient and modern times! WORD!!!
This is often where churches & friendships divide. Those raised under legalism can tend to be afraid of the movement of the Holy Spirit. Judgemental and overly-literal. They throw people in “spiritual jail” for living out the prompting of the Holy Spirit simply because the movement of the Holy Spirit “looks different” than anything they have seen or experienced. Those not rooted in sound doctrine can get out of order and “hyper-charismatic”. Both are simply another example of humans acting in the flesh. We are all human! We ALL battle our flesh. Salvation issues and fundamental doctrine….we must KNOW IT and be willing to stand for it at all cost. The other stuff…when we don’t understand someone else, when we have different convictions, we disagree with them, or we don’t relate because of different backgrounds/flavors/giftings/style/life experience, whatever…we must communicate in LOVE. We do not need to divide over these issues! And how about exercising FAITH?! If that person is saved, then the Holy Spirit got ahold of them that ONE TIME remember?? And we can TRUST, BY FAITH (pray!) for that person, that they would receive a fresh filling or baptism of the Holy Spirit…and that GOD WILL BE GOD and gently make their way straight
Takes A LOT MORE FAITH, obedience, maturity, discipline to sit back, be quiet and TRUST doesn’t it? Don’t we tend to think things would happen a LOT FASTER if we just “told them” what they’re doing wrong instead of waiting on & trusting the Lord (aka: praying for them and BELIEVING GOD CAN).
I realize there is a time and place to speak up or share something from the Lord with someone else…but I have been challenged to ask myself…haven’t I gotten ahead of the Lord before?
How often have I taken a “feeling” and thought it to be a “Holy Spirit nudge” and responded to my flesh vs the Spirit? WE ALL DO. None is exempt …and isn’t this the same thing we are judging in other people? OUR “mistakes” in trying to be HOLY can cause a lot of damage. I’ve been on both sides of this. If we ARE to speak up, I pray we have the courage to do so, and most importantly, we speak in LOVE, keep our opinions out of it, and seek only to BUILD THAT PERSON UP. Lord, help us all!
Let “worshippers” be free to sing & dance. Let “literalists” be literal. Let GOD be GOD.
PRAY for one another. GOD IS THE ONLY ONE WHO CAN CHANGE PEOPLE. We are FREE from the BURDEN of trying to control or change people!!! Hallelujah!!!!
1 Peter 2:9 We are a CHOSEN GENERATION, A ROYAL PRIESTHOOD, A HOLY NATION, A PECULIAR PEOPLE!! REMEMBER: the Holy Spirit moves different in different people. We cannot box him into our small capacity of life experience. BE FREE within the confines of scripture not man’s misconceptions.
God is omnipotent (all-powerful, all Mighty), omniscient (all-knowing), omnipresent (everywhere). We must be careful not to put God in a box and assume we know the recipe for how He works & moves in other people’s lives. LOVE the brethren. TRUST GOD to complete the work in his people (not us!) Edify the body of Christ. Build people up! Forgive quickly. Judge slowly. Quit trying to control things. GOD IS ABLE. HE LOVES US ALL
Ecclesiastes 11:5 NIV As you do not know the path of the wind, or how the body is formed in a mother’s womb, so you cannot understand the work of God, the Maker of all things. It’s not about us! It’s about HIM!! I LOVE YOU CHURCH!!
IN 1 WEEK I’LL BE ON A PLANE TO NASHVILLE FOR THE 1ST TIME SINCE WE MOVED HERE!!!!!!!!!!! It’s been 2 YEARS already!!!
SO. MUCH. HAS. CHANGED. It will be the exact week we left Nashville in tears of grief and joy, Sunday Nov 11, 2012….after saying goodbye to our Conduit church family at our last TN church service. There were so many emotions, but the vision was SO CLEAR that we never looked back.
God called. We answered. The vision was clear “Sell everything. Move to California. Live on a boat. Share the Gospel.” And then God confirmed it dozens of times over.
We headed west in our Jeep with 2 chihuahuas and the bare essentials. We laid down everything to run with Jesus. We left behind the people, place, “stuff”, career, comforts, security…everything that God had blessed us with. It was the scariest, most amazing, yet most peaceful event of my life to date. So much changed all at once. We were on cloud 9 for the 1st 2 months. It was fun being homeless for a month and figuring out where in California we were going to live. God had a plan, but we didn’t know it but 1 step at a time. Zach’s parole officer made it clear we WOULD BE living in Orange County since that’s where Zach’s immediate relatives lived. That’s the rule, so God used to plant us here. Ultimately God planted us in beautiful Dana Point, right next to the harbor, but not on a boat.
Thennnn…. reality set in, and God had VERY DIFFERENT plans for us (well, He knew all along, we just didn’t forsee it…haha). I completely overwhelmed myself trying to get licensed in CA because I “just knew” I was going to rest for maybe a month and then open another practice. 2 months of “vacation” (rest…let’s be honest, there was VERY LITTLE rest) felt like an eternity! Mama HAD to get back to work….
OH CONTRARE!! I ended up never getting re-licensed in CA, and literally went on sebbatical for OVER A YEAR, resting, healing, “facing my crap”…it was painful, humbling, HARD, SO HARD, SO DARK at times….yet …GOD KNEW BEST. I was spent!! Every health problem I’d ever had came back with a vengeance. I went into a dark depression. For the first time in my life, I battled the lies the the Lord had forgotten about me, that we made some mistake, that I had my seaosn of “bliss’ and it was all over forever. The biggest lie I battled was that I had NO PURPOSE, and I truly believed I could not live without purpose. Hopelessness kills. The warfare raged spiritually, emotionally, physically and maritally. I spent my whole life full speed ahead. I NEEDED REST. I NEEDED HEALING that no one could see on the outside. But I could never allow myself to do it. It seemed lazy, irresponsible, ridiculous…it felt like my healing was taking SO LONG…WHY WAS IT TAKING SO LONG??!!!! HOW were we going to pay our bills without me working?! I was always the bread-winner. I DID NOT like to be “down”. I guess God was actually serious that He needed me to rest. It took me almost a year to realize that this season was a GIFT and not a punishment!
Well, fast forward, 2 years later, I NEEDED THAT REST to be completely re-built. God had the most amazing plans for me, but I needed to be refined. Apparently, He wanted to make me a TOTALLY NEW CREATION. God stripped me of all those things I found my identity in outside of Him. There were MANY. God delivered both Zach and I from alcoholism, He healed our marriage and united us in a way I would not even allow myself to DREAM OF! Yes, those fires burned off a lot of “you know what”. God showed me how HE could provide when it seemed impossible... (I mean hello, He moved us to ORANGE COUNTY…one of THE MOST EXPENSIVE, VAIN…and BEAUTIFUL places to live in the U.S.!!) He healed me on a level I didn’t know I needed. It taught me so much, which now spills over into the ministry God has called me to today. The way I “practice” looks completely different than before. He downloaded supernatural wisdom that daily humbles me. He has given me Authority in areas I am humbled to have, gave me territory to boldly proclaim His love & gospel message that doesn’t even make sense!! ALL GLORY to Him alone. When it was time to go back to work full-time in April 2013…BOOOM! It was quick! Doors flew open, anointing was released. Satan’s power was CRUSHED! All that heaviness miraculously lifted. Years of bitterness GONE. The POWER OF GOD was released in our life like never before. Apparently, we were now ready for His next set of plans for us… We have only begun to scratch the surface of what God wants to do with us here….but I can assure you GOD IS ALIVE AND KNOWS WHAT HE IS DOING. WHY HE CHOSE US, I HAVE NO IDEA. But we are ALL IN for Jesus!!
We wouldn’t change ANY of it!! We know we are exactly where we are supposed to be, and we see God’s provision! We know if we are supposed to live on a boat someday that HE WILL PROVIDE a boat, the timing, the location, etc. Until then, we are content. I have never experienced such PEACE, joy and freedom before in my life!! I have never found my husband more attractive as I do now. I now respect and trust Him and feel “ONE” with Him like never before. We are both in our proper places, in Godly order in our marriage. I feel so grounded in Christ simply because we took a chance. I see His power on a daily basis. We experience so much grace knowing we are not perfect and that God always gets us back on track as we navigate these waters of ministry and life. We GAVE HIM the chance to show off and do miracles and HE HAS BLOWN OUR MINDS!!…All He wants is a willing heart and He will use us in WAYS WE CANNOT EVEN IMAGINE! I encourage anyone whose read this far…let go. say yes. Trust. You will never regret it. THIS is where the peace that surpasses all understanding comes from. This is what everyone wants, but often isn’t brave enough to simply surrender to the process.
IT. IS. WORTH. IT. and will always be.